To My Future Mustache-kini

I'll love you forever.

For real. 

Love always,

Your mustache lover

lightnin' strikes

Growing up my family used to go camping every summer with some family friends. All weekend the radio in the pavilion would play the oldies radio station. I loved it. One of my particular favorites was Lightnin' Strikes by Lou Christie. The minute I hear that song I immediately think about swimming in Lake Erie, making mountain pies over a fire, playing sneaks at night, and drinking orange creamsicles. On this very snowy day (that's right, inches of snow in April) I could really use some summer and I know I can't be the only one!

Gotta love a man in a jean outfit with a full beard singing falsetto!

in-betweener

I'm realizing these last couple months that I've become an in-betweener for guys. They send me naughty little texts when they are on their 500th "break" with their girlfriend. They flirt it up and make it seem like they're interested while they still aren't sure about another girl that they've started seeing. After they get out of a relationship they want to hang out before they move on to their next legit relationship. Almost every guy I've dated has either broken up with me for someone else or after we've broken up has a much more substantial relationship with their next girlfriend.

wtf?

Don't get me wrong, I know that half of it is my own fault, but more often than not I never see it coming. It's as if my standards are just low enough to let these guys in under the radar and then I'm totally stunned when it happens...again.

I'm sick of it. I want to be the first draft pick. I want to be chosen by choice, not default or convenience. Not someones fallback when they're bored or hot and bothered. It's not fair to myself.

In high school and for the first part of college my standards were pretty high and most everyone that knew me, knew that about me. Looking back now I'm not exactly sure when they started sinking. It looks like an avalanche though. One loud noise and down they tumbled.  It wasn't until last year that I started to really feel/see the consequences of it too. Since then I've made some changes in how I go about men and I'm starting to see the standard bar raise little by little. But like anything, it takes work. It's so much easier for the wall to fall than it is to build it.

No more in-betweening for me. I'm over it.

timing...

...is a real bitch.

You meet(or re-meet) someone. They are just what you're looking for. Things are going in a great direction. Then the elephant in the room reveals itself. Timing. All the other elements work together so well, but the timing isn't right. You try to ignore it for as long as you can, but it's always there...staring at you...reminding you of how important it is. Until you can't ignore it anymore. You have to face it, acknowledge it, and...and what? What then? Do you turn around and walk away, give up on the idea all together? Keep trying to ignore it? I don't know. I do know that it's not a happy position to be in. Not happy at all.

rainbows

Today is a glorious day! It is a glorious day because I was finally able to get my brand new pair of rainbows out!! I bought them at the end of last summer and immediately stowed them away...it wasn't worth having them get all dirty. So today they finally went outside and man does it feel good. If any of you own a pair, you know what I'm talking about. My feet and I couldn't be happier and i can't wait till they start to get worn in and comfy.

Nothing beats a great pair of flip flops. Nothing.