Monday Music

Everyone needs a Monday Morning pick-me-up. I usually turn to music for this. Today it's September by Earth Wind and Fire. How can anyone NOT love this song?? I can't help but groove as soon as the intro starts. The words are almost impossible to comprehend but that never stops me from muttering along with how they sound. I love this song and I hope it can bring you a little happy as you go head-to-head with the Monday Madness!

my favorite things

some of my favorite things lately:

• getting back into cross-stitching
• reading the number 141 on my scale (that's right, no shame in my game!!)
• my planner
• blue skies and sunshine
• BBM
• Skyping with Peace Sign

ain't life funny

My full time job is being a nanny for a local family. While I'm here during the day I take care of the kids as well as do light housework like laundry and dishes. This whole week I've been a cleaning machine for some reason; doing at least 3 loads of laundry a day and cleaning the floors and doing 2 loads of dishes some times. Yesterday it all started to get to me. I got a little annoyed with the fact that every day I was having to do the same exact things because overnight all my hard work was erased. I talked to my mom and vented about it a little bit just to get it out of my system. Afterwards I wasn't exactly at peace about it but I didn't feel so frustrated.
Today, while I was cleaning up from lunch, I got a text from the mother of the kids saying "Hey Sarah thx for all your help with the house lately! we really really appreciate it!" I immediately thought of how ironic it was that just yesterday I was venting about it and then today the mom thanked me. All my hard work was worth it for that text alone. I couldn't help but think about how funny life can be. How timing is everything. How when you're in that moment of total frustration it's so hard to look at the big picture and you never know what the next day will bring. And just because you don't think people notice your actions and efforts, doesn't mean they go unseen.

DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF! It probably isn't worth it!

okay is alright with me

Since last April I've been technically single. Sure I've seen a few guys here and there but nothing substantial came out of it. For years, especially when I was a teenager, singledom was a terrible and lonely thing. I dreaded it. I dated the wrong guys and settled for less just so I didn't have to be a single person. But this time has been different. I'm single and it's okay. I'm okay. Sure sometimes I think it would be nice to have a significant person in my life, but I don't feel desperate to find one. I don't feel like I need someone.  I finally feel like being with someone does not define who I am or what I can do with my life. It's my life. I can do as I please and see where my life goes. It's empowering to feel good about it too. If I could rub some of my okay-ness on John Deere I would. It's okay to be single. It's not scary or terrible. It gives you the time to find things that you like to do, spend time with people who care about you, and nourish your relationship with yourself. While I'm sure that someday I'll meet someone wonderful, it's nice to not feel stressed or worried about it. It'll happen when it happens and until then, I'm going to enjoy my time and do me!

[side note: okay is alright with me is a wonderful song by Eric Hutchinson. you should probably check it out!]

who cares?

The other day I was talking with my mom about a friend of mine, whom we will refer to as Lambo. I've known Lambo for 11 years now so it's been troubling me to see him be unhappy lately. He's come out of a bad relationship and seems to be lost. He worries me. I don't think he's a danger to himself or anything but I just want him to find his happy and get back to his normal self. I have continued to worry and reach out to him and as I was telling my mom about it she stopped me and said "leave him alone". I haven't been pushy or anything but the point she is trying to make is that I can't do anything for him. He needs to figure it out for himself, even if he makes a wrong choice along the way. I found myself arguing with her immediately. It was as if she was saying "Sarah, don't care so much about Lambo or the decisions he makes". Is really that what I need to do? Stop caring so much about him? Or stop showing him that I care? I have trouble with this. I feel like part of me just wants to show him that he isn't alone, but I also hope that he already knows that.
Beyond Lambo, should this be an approach I take to my other friends too. If I worry about them, should I just start keeping it to myself? Now, none of my friends are suicidal or at serious harm; obviously if that were the case I wouldn't be discussing it here and not with them. For example, my friend Rum Runner likes to drag race and do silly dangerous things. Obviously it's nothing to lose sleep over but I still worry a little about him. At the end of the day, I don't want to be that friend that's like having a second mother around but I also don't want to be absent from a friend in need. It's a hard line to walk.
So, I guess for now I will leave Lambo be and if he needs to talk he knows how to get a hold of me. And Lambo, if you're reading this, just know that I want what's best for you and you deserve all the happiness in the world. And I adore you!

To: My Discoverer

         Now, since I'm still figuring out what kind of girl I am, and because I don't want to make it too easy for you, I've been thinking a lot lately about what kind of girl I'm not. So here goes nothing:

I'm not the girl who refuses to dedicate Sunday afternoons, Monday nights, and the occasional Thursday evening to football.

I will not need to cry on your shoulder every time.

I'm not the girl who needs to wear makeup to go to the gym. Nor am I the girl who uses 5lb weights and never sweats.

I would never keep you from a guy's night.  

I'm not afraid to get dirty.

I'm not the girl who needs to get wasted to have a good time.

I'm not a coffee drinker.

I won't need to know where you are all the time. 

I'm not the girl who won't eat a full meal in front of you (or anyone else for that matter)!

I'm not a liar. 

I'm not the girl who plays head games or will leave you guessing.

I'm not the girl who needs to be with you every second of every day...but I might want to. 

I'm not a cat person.
I'm not a country music fan.
I'm not the girl who will whine about being fat when I'm not.
I'm not meek or mild. 

Well, that's what I've got for now. I don't know if some of these will change by the time we meet but I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Love Always,

Your Uncharted Territory

my favorite things

Here are some of my favorite things lately:

• my public library
• Skype dates
• finding new and exciting blogs
• a hot bath
• snuggling with the kids I nanny
• yummy cookies!

a perfect afternoon

just sayin'

Because my body decided to catch a cold yesterday(I had no say in the matter) I had nothing better to do but knit and watch movies. I caught the middle of "The Mask of Zorro" and decided to watch the rest of it.I had an observation after watching this part of the movie.

Obviously Catherine Zeta Jone and Antonio Banderas are sexy people but GOOD LORD! If this clip isn't proof that they should have left their less attractive spouses and procreated then I don't know what is. Enjoy!

this town

I miss the sun on my face

Warm wind in my hair

Sand stuck to my feet

Not having a care

My life here is dry

It’s as cold as the night

I can’t seem to thrive

I can’t seem to fight

I feel my heart wanting

To just pack up and go

It’s calling me ever

So quietly so

To some other place

Full of culture and joy

A place to plants roots

Who knows? Meet a boy?

But I stay where I am

No I can’t up and flee

I just hope that this place

Won’t suck the life out of me